A look at consciousness and physics to explain the psyche.

(The following is from my own experience, spiritual downloads, theorizing, and research. I have not personally done the math or physics to back up some of these claims. Take them as you will and discover more yourself.)

I’ve lived with PTSD my whole life. And lifetimes before. And lifetimes after. 

To understand the above statement you have to be somewhat familiar with the studies in consciousness. For time is not linear outside of our current known reality. Rather it is stacked. If you’ve seen “The Good Place” you’ll understand when I mention “Jeremy Bearimy” to understand time. And yet, we think we live it in a linear fashion. But the more you expand your consciousness, the more you have experienced time in a different way.

So as I say, I’ve lived with PTSD my whole life and lifetimes before and after, means I have traveled to different times and experienced the traumatic events that took place or have yet to take place. Through my studies with plant medicine—and it’s important that I say studies, because I use it as medicine and as a learning tool, rather than a crutch or an escape or an excuse to avoid doing the work in the “3D linear time” reality.

I have come to understand that PTSD is a result of consciousness getting stuck at a traumatic event in time. For instance, if you’ve experienced childhood abuse or sexual trauma and have flashbacks, what that actually means is that a part of your consciousness is stuck in that time. Meaning, when you have a flashback, the part of your consciousness that is stuck there is actually reliving that moment again and again, which is why it’s so painful. Imagine the analogy of a vinyl record getting caught in what’s called a locked groove, replaying a tiny portion of the album, endlessly scratching the same spot over and over until someone lifts the tonearm and relieves the problem. 

There’s a known experiment that explains David Bohm’s theory of Implicate and Explicate Order, where you place ink droplets in a device filled with viscous fluid, such as glycerin or corn syrup, and you spin the device with the liquid in a clockwise manner. The result of this action causes the ink to spread out and blend in the viscous fluid. However, what is most fascinating is when the device is then spun counterclockwise the ink returns to its original state as if nothing ever happened.

This phenomenon is what I describe as Return to Source. And the dispersing of the ink is what I refer to as the soul’s journey. By spinning clockwise in time, we disperse our soul across different timelines, and depending on how traumatic certain lifetimes are we actually get stuck and can’t properly spin backwards to return to Source. Therefore, when we can effectively reverse time—spin the device counterclockwise—by remembering these traumas and reintegrating the lost parts of our consciousness, we can become Whole again.

First step: understanding the above.

Second step: spinning “backwards”.

Since time isn’t linear, we don’t have to physically go back in time. By placing our awareness in “altered states of reality” (through use of plant medicine, deep states of meditation, hypnotherapy, breathwork, past-life regression) with the intention to recover the broken fragments of our soul, we can start the counterclockwise spinning process. 

In the 3D we have three directions: forwards/backwards, upwards/downwards, and inwards/outwards.

In the 4D we have four directions: forwards/backwards, upwards/downwards, inwards/outwards, and futurewards/pastwards.

In the 5D we have five directions. (I won’t get into physics and mathematics here but you may enjoy researching it yourself.)

If you are tuned into the discussions about the future of Earth and humanity in the filters of consciousness, you’ll be familiar with all the talk about Earth and people moving into the 5D. But to move from the 3D to the 5D, we must pass through the 4D, meaning we must collectively go futurewards and pastwards to recover the lost pieces of our souls.

For those ready to start or continue the process of Returning (and if you’re reading this, then that means you are on that path), it’s important to have a willingness to delete and reprogram any and all programs you’ve held in the past/future or currently hold in the present.

We inherently have known that it’s important to process trauma, but with this new awareness, it is not only important, but imperative, that we find those lost parts of our consciousness and reintegrate them back into our Selves if we have any hope to Return to Source.

NOTE: Vipassana, the technique taught by Siddhartha Gautama (known as The Buddha) and reintroduced by S.N. Goenka, is effective at clearing away sanskaras (mental impressions, memories, and psychological imprints that have formed in this lifetime or past/future lifetimes). I highly recommend this in addition to any other healing and integration techniques used.